I prayed. I believed. I did.

I submitted half of my trust.

I held onto the other half; gripped the bulging bundle of stubbornness, self-sufficiency, and determination. Held on tight.

He could do His work and I would help by doing mine. I knew myself well, after all.

Answers to prayers, where were they? Guidance, where? What was I missing?

Weary, I needed rest. I handed the heavy lot over, abandoned it at the door, gave it to my Father, my keeper, and filled the void with pure trust.

Freedom entered, without a knock, silently drifted in on the wings of faith.

Peace. No fear. No bundle to cling to. What bundle?

Joy. Stability, planted and nourished.

Freedom to live, to not die.

Freedom!

“What no eye has seen,

what no ear has heard,

and what no human mind has conceived” –

the things God has prepared for those who love him –

these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.

(1 Corinthians 2:9-10 NIV)