Why does he always do this? I cannot get anything done because of him!
He is going to think I am an idiot no-matter what I do. I will try to be better starting right now, and perhaps if I am careful I can turn this around…or…better yet, I might throw in the towel and go hide away.
Does this sound familiar? I know, it is frustrating. It can feel like you’ve fallen into a whirlpool that sucks you under, twists you about with bone aching action, and never releases you to gulp a restoring breath of well-deserved calm and peace.
Where is God’s power in all of this? What is it that locks iron bars around our attention and devotion while our lives are twisted like flimsy rag dolls?
The power of God’s love. The power of His grace. The power of His will. The power of His plans for us vs. the power of His enemy…our enemy. The enemy that knows our shortfalls. The destroyer that knows our weaknesses and ignores our humane strengths.
We give the enemy our power, and he sneers at us. Ah-ha…I’ve snared her for good today. She thinks she has John, or Susan, or the fire-breathing boss to blame. I’ve wrenched her heart to drain it, and made her soul ache to the bones. She believes my lies. She does not see the truth. I am the one that is handed the token. I have prevailed. With a twist of her mind, I can hold her here and convince her that she is worthless, powerless, and unable to make a change.
She has given the power to me. Me!
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:29-31 NIV
I can see Jesus looking at us (in our wrung out state of mind), “Where is your faith?” “Did you lock it away to only be used when you face no problems? What or who is greater than my Father? You have many choices, and one is to pick it (your tired bones) up and follow me.”
Do you feel it? Thank you Father, for your peace and strength. Thank you for understanding us…that despite our love for you, we slip and fall weak. We look inwards for answers, and fumble around in darkness. Thank you for the lessons you continue to provide. The lessons in patience, in love, in remembering the grace that you have given us is the grace that we must also graciously serve to those that live on earth with us. The lesson that we must do this without giving away the power that The Spirit has given us, to allow you to fight what we cannot. Today, we do not want to waste one ounce of that power and love, not a drop, not a single speck.
“The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you — they are full of the Spirit and life.” John 6:63
“Yet there are some of you who do not believe.” John 6:64
Father, fill us with your Spirit. Be with us and fill us with strength.